Class: 4MD
Date: Feb 17th
1. Describe one stressful event that you have experienced before.
It was around July last year when I was promoted to a position in the Band executive committee. This particular position I have been assigned to is known to be the most toiling of all other posts in the committee. True enough, I was extremely burdened due to the never ending paperwork and arranging. Scoldings just had to aggravate the situation.
2. What strategies did you use to overcome that stressful event?
Background Information: When I was first given this post, I was ALWAYS the senior who was ticked off badly. Only me.
Some DEVIATION: I really don't know what is wrong with me, EVEN until today. The conductors just treated me as SOMETHING to vent their anger on. I believe that my work pace has been as high as always ever since I started, and I'm confident that I have done my share (or more) of my work.
Some MORE: It's just bloody unfair! I did my job and I still get reprimanded. On the other hand, those who were shaking their lags since god knows when did not have to suffer such shyt!
Still, the experience I have acquired is...beneficial, I hope.
And, sometimes, they BULLY Cookiie too! Grr!! I really hated Band when I took up all these f**ked up responsibilities. Rather than having the power to make a difference, I merely sent myself to some death camp.
Erm, I did recover my passion this year, but, too late.
ANSWER: I cried. I sobbed. I let my tears flow out when I'm by my pillow. After that, I vowed to continue to strive for improvement, and planned the action I should take in the future, during those sleepless nights.
3. On hindsight, were the strategies effective or ineffective?
I believe that those were not even strategies. A tear or two would still streak down my cheeks when I'm thoroughly demoralized. I'm as weak as always. The conductors have merely found "better" people to pick on. I think I am still very insecure during Band practice. In fear of being called out? And this fear keeps the stress going on.
There, my white hair prospered.
However, when I see how I have helped my other Band members, the pain does disappear...momentarily.
Thank you for reading deep into my thoughts.
May I have this back?
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